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Why I hate our Topper?

All characters appearing in this work are fictitious. Any resemblance to real persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental (or intentional).

Guys and gals, we all have reasons to love our topper and apparently more reasons to hate him/her. Let me add one more to that reasons of hatred. Here’s the incident, which aargh:

Bookworm chased by pesticide

That was one of my wishes…

It was Second Semester in College. I loved a girl. This one was special. You know, since childhood, I have been against girls, but when I looked at her for the first time, all those years of hatred and resistance simply crumbled and God only knows how I take my eyes off her every time I look at her.

We were part of the same friend’s circle. One day, our group decided to go to the movies, “Harry Potter”. Not remotely interested. When she asked me, I was about to say no but… then I thought it’s AN Opportunity. I get to watch a movie with her. I had to control my excitement from her. “Yes, Why not?”

Now, the real hurdle for me was to sit next to her. The guys in my group knew it and so, they would sit accordingly. Girls… the ultimate problem to mankind. Then, Girl1 knows it. Girl2, nah, Girl3, nah. Its going to be tough. Throughout the way to theatre, I was deeply thinking of ways to sit with her. Even she remarked, “You are unusually silent today”.

Finally we reached. We were all settling down. Then, I saw her take seat with Girl3 but no one else on the other side. “God is great”. I practically leaped to The Seat. But before that, Mr. Topper sat down. “WTF??” I cursed inside. I told him through our eye-language to get up as I want to sit with her. But lo karlo baat, he didn’t understand.

“What?” he enquired with confusion spread all over his face.

The lights went off and reel started rolling. Everybody started shouting, “Sit, sit, movie’s about to begin”

I marched off to the extreme corner. Damn it, there was the opportunity, there was luck, everything was in perfect place but now due to that $**#@ I am stuck with a movie I am not at all interested in, blown hundred and fifty bucks and sitting with some random stranger on one side and a girl who was so deep into the movie that if disturbed, she would “Avada Kedavra” me. 😦 😦 :X

movie and sleeping in theatre

You may be wondering I could have sat after the intermission, but that was also a tragedy. That’s for another time. Till then. Take care.


Let Tomorrow Come…

Beneath the starry ceiling

Amidst the divine tune of Cupids

Drinking from the finest champagne

Let tomorrow come

I have no fear for I have you


Mesmerized by your kitten eyes

Rising and Holding you close

Swaying in the perfect rhythm

Let tomorrow come

I have no fear for I have you


Bringing you more closer

Breathing in your breaths

Watching you close your eyes

Let tomorrow come

I have no fear for I have you

Couple lost in the dancing

Just being with each other


Kissing those ruby lips

Forgetting everything else

Except this unsatiable Desire

Let tomorrow come

I have no fear for I have you


I know we are parting tomorrow

Wanting to say Millions things

Thinking of Million ways to stop you

Let tomorrow not come

I fear for I will not have you


Sensing the turmoil within me

You embrace me

Making me realize the only reality is present

Let tomorrow come

I have no fear for I have you

Guest Post: I fell in Love with you…

One of the most amazing romantic poems I have ever read… Expressed by my friend, Mayank Choudhary. You can know the depth of him by his writings…

My best dream...

Tries to remember but yet it diminishes
Your face in those old hit lashes
Was it me who set it lose
Or it was you who let it diffuse

Guess it was me who took it wrong
But u kept quiet and stubborn
Was it your silence that perplexed me
Or was it my innocence
That conjured against me

Lastly landed where only your eyes paved the way further
And now I am standing here devastated and lost
Cursing the chap in me that craves you
The man who loved you, lived you
Is now entitled a life that starves for you
And you are nothing but a mere sore in this heart
That is as dear as painful

Today I stand low and thrashed
Soused by your memories
Deceived by your false promises
And musing over the time
I fell in love with you…..!!!!

If you like it, i bet you will love this one: Adumberance

My Love is like a Phoenix…


Born from the ashes

Of a burnt heart

So hopeless, so insignificant

Yet an inevitable feeling


Fostering alone, Perplexed

Afraid and Famished

Yet growing stronger,

More beautiful, every moment


Mesmerized by my golden feathers

People envy my fortune

Yet, My Fortune mocks me

Even my Cry seems a melodious song…


Soldiering on and on

My beauty has withered

This pain is too much,

Now, Ultimate destination awaits me…


Burning in the scorching flame,

I am reducing to Ashes again

Never bereft of loneliness, Oh my Princess

For my Love is like a Phoenix


Born from the ashes

Of a burnt heart

So hopeless, so insignificant

Yet with you always

Third Element of Relationship…

People say as you grow, you learn more about Life. You learn more about relationships. I too grew up and like everyone else, Life taught me too. Earlier, I thought love was the base of relationship. Then, I realized without trust, a relationship may take off. But it can never survive. But for the existence of a relationship, you need one more parameter: Time.

During the first year of my college Life, my friends and I had great fun. Only lamenting the fact that we were scattered and were very much apart (distance wise) but later on as we moved in the second year, we consolidated our location. We were just a few steps away. Indeed, it would be a better year.

I was wrong. It didn’t turn out to be better year or a more fun one. For the very reason that we just thought that we can talk with each other whenever we want now that we are so close. We could have but we never did. That was a big big difference. The distances (not in terms of km but within the hearts) began to grow. Our group was divided into factions. My friend is merely an acquaintance now.

Plant of Relationship

Plant of Relationship

Of course, some relations have the magic that whenever we meet again, after anytime, it would be just like old days. If you imagine the moment carefully, sitting in café, chatting about old times… Observe It’s the memories you gave time is connecting you. Moreover, the intensity is not the same as it was. The other person is changed, we have changed. Since none of us gave time, none of us has space for each other now.

My point is relationships cannot be considered to be an element of some romantic or friendship story based solely on Love. Relations are important, the threads in our Life and to maintain those threads, we need to give a little effort. Give a part of Life that is special and truly ours i.e. Time.

Take only an hour out of your week. Regroup, talk, conference call, pull each other legs, maybe go for a golgappe or chat, simply walk, anything but do it. Don’t ever make the mistake of taking them granted. One mistake you will look back with happy and sad eyes and term it as “those old days”, “the Platinum days”…

So, I think I should also call some of my old friends now as a very mysterious friend of mine said, “Gagan, you are guilty of not giving time to your friends.”

Only Rain isn't going to flourish them, you need to water also...

Anybody But Not Him

Finally, today was the day… the day when I was finally going to tell her how much I loved her and how much she meant to me. For days I have been struggling with myself every minute whether I should tell her the way I feel about her and the way she makes me feel.

The night was perfect. The moon was shining like a galleon, and a pleasant wind wafted across the moonlit night. I was going to meet her at the terrace, our spot since childhood. I was nervous as hell and I was just parading up and down. At last, I decided to kick-off the fear and climbed up the stairs. It was not at all easy. As more and more I climbed the stairs, even in such breezy atmosphere, I could literally feel the sweat sticking to my body. The voices in my head began to quarrel again, “No way man you can’t do that. You will lose her forever.” “Go Arjun Go. You should tell her. Perhaps she loves you too.” With the slightest of hope, I ascended the stairs and saw her standing there… her face glowing in moonlight and the wind playing with her hair, bringing them over and over her cheeks. “Tonight, I am going to propose a fairy”.

She was extraordinarily happy, she was blushing and she let out a large scream. I panicked, “Did she know already?” I saw the red rose in my hand and oorf, I forgot to hide it. She came running to me and hugged me, “I am sooooo happy today. Thank you.”

“Thank you!!!!”… I thought completely confused, “Whats happening here?” But I managed to utter, “Suhani, I am a little lost here. What’s going on?”

“Come on. Don’t act surprised. You already know” she said jumping around the whole terrace.


“I am committed. Kabir proposed to me today and I said yes”.

I couldn’t believe my ears. “What???”

“Yes, I am in a relationship”.

The words hit me like a tornado hitting a house in North America. It could have blown or crushed me. Actually, it had but I needed to put a strong face and You know what, “It hurts…”

“Su, how??… when??”

“It started with fb chats. Then we started talking on the phone and soon we began to like each other and…” she blushed again.

Somehow the rose, which I bought, had a thorn and it started pricking me…

“And you never even bothered to tell me? Come on, we are friends since childhood”, totally surprised how one heart can handle various feelings so well – pain, anger, hurt,  disdain, appall.

She broke the eye-contact and looked down, “Well… I know you don’t like him.”

“Yeah Damn right…”, my anger getting better of me.

“Pleaseee… Know him. He is a sweet guy. Really”

“I don’t trust him.”


I wondered why we are having this discussion again. She already knew my deep-rooted angst against him from our previous talks.

“My intuition tells me not to…” Since the day I met him, I had a strong feeling about him, a strong dislike, an aura of treachery.  An instinctive natural warning. Something struck me off about this guy.

“You know maybe you should start talking with him. He understands me, listens to me (pretends) and loves me(pretends). I also love him and…” She took a deep breath and threw lightning on me, “ I don’t care if you approve of it or not”

The thorn pricked further. Our Years of Friendship, those times when we just needed each other didn’t matter. All mattered was a few days interaction. I was at the verge of crying but I better hold up.

“You are right… Why should you care about my opinion? He is THE ONE right…” in a sarcastic tone. I needed to go, I could not bear any more. I turned my back.

“You are really being silly. Tell me what is this really about?” she demanded.

“Its about… shucks… I LOVE YOU and I cannot see you with him, especially him”, my eyes had started getting watered and I just stumped to my knees.

“Arjun, what?… what? You love me” Her eyes expanding in disbelief and she kneeled in front of me.

“But I never felt about you in that way… Please I don’t want to lose a friend. Accept us and move on..” She said, wiping the tears near my eyelids. If only, she could see the tears in my heart.

I gulped and begged, “Su, Anybody but not him?”

“I don’t get it…”

The girl whom I loved the most was with the boy I hated the most. “I don’t trust him”

“But I do and …”

“I know…” I stood up, turned away from her and headed to stairs.

When I was at the edge of stairs, she called, “You always said the best part of our friendship is we understand.”

I turned around and looked in her eyes, which were about to roll tears and said

“If Only you could…”

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Little Knowing…

When my eyes drifted on to you for the first time…

I couldn’t help but stare…

I watched you through the glass…

Going away from me…

Little knowing my heart with you…


When we met again,

My breaths became slower…

I couldn’t look straight into that mesmerizing eyes…

I stuttered and you thought I was this shy boy…

Little knowing the effect on me you have…


When we weren’t together,

All I could think was you…

My hands dialing your number…

But everytime just stopping…

Little knowing I would regret it forever…


When we became friends,

I just wished side-by-side forever we walk …

Pouring our hearts, gazing into each other’s soul and talk…

I prayed to keep that smile forever…

Little knowing I would be the one to turn it into tears…


When I finally took a step forward,

I opened my heart to you…

You felt offended and I hurt…

You wanted to be “Just Friends”…

Little knowing a word like “Friend” can be heart-shattering too…

Life going away

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