My dear Friend/Relative/Lots of people in my Life,
First of all, allow me to begin by thanking you for all the great times we had. But I think it’s time for us to admit that we have reached a certain stage where our dynamics have been exhausted and it would be in the best of interests of both if I just walk out from here.
Believe me, I have done the idiotic mistake of carrying dead relations since small. I enjoy being in relations but in the moment or rather my desperate hope to cling to them, I simply missed their expiry date. (Most have oneL)
For instance, in Class VII, I was good friends with my class-mate. We used to sit together, go dance classes, tuitions together. Then the friction started increasing and we stopped talking. Just for the sake of I don’t know why, we continued our activity together and continued being miserable. All the while, I could have part ways, make some new friends but I was I…
You may be wondering why I haven’t walked out yet…
- Civility. Sometimes, its like that tight jeans which makes you look cool but is totally suffocating.
- Pain of “Letting go”
- My fantasies would remain fantasies
- Fear of being alone
- Glimmer of hope of return (It sounds and it is desperate)
- Believing that it is the best I can get
- He/She is very vital to me
And probably more…
So, lets me amiable and unburden ourselves with our non-useful baggage and don’t tire ourselves out.
You can claim:
I am expecting too much from Life.Maybe you are right, but I would prefer to make a mistake and know your value rather than stuck in a crushing compromise and curse you throughout.
It’s only your mind running wild. At the end of the day, am I happy? The answer came NO. If the surface of ocean is silent, it doesn’t mean it is silent.
What’s harm in keeping whatever we have. I am always going to be dejected around you. And as a result, negativity would start seeping inside. I would become grumpy and shall be looked as crappy person. Besides, the portion of brain would be better employed somewhere else.
I am the best that you can get. There are 6,973,738,432 people in world. I doubt that. Maybe I already have someone but I am ignoring him
Life is a compromise. Compromise is middle way and it doesn’t seem to me like that.
I will be truthful. Walking out of you will hurt a lot. It’s scary and dilemma of right and wrong but I would prefer in not getting dejected over someone who isn’t glad to have me, no point in forming bonds with you just we are blood-related, no point in belittling myself where every fault is inadvertently mine, no point in being a relation which cuts my wings.
You and I both deserve better.
I know I will be tempted to carry the dead again whenever I see you but I will remember the reason and see if it has been altered and realize we came together as different persons and go away as different. I will walk out politely so that bridge is not completely burnt.
Take care of yourself.